Time Alone.
It seems that the better my husband and I get in our separate recoveries, the more issues emerge in our marriage. Lately, we are each staking claims to my time.My husband is home alone, a lot. When he was using, it never seemed to matter to him that he was home so much by himself. [...]
Just Swell.
I don’t have much to say about my life lately. It’s all going well. It’s all just swell.There are things that could be better, of course. I could make some more money. My husband could get a job. I could work out some kinks in important family relationships.But overall, I’m happy. I am in love [...]
The Gun.
I spoke with my Al-Anon sponsor this morning, and I told her that things are going kind of shockingly well at my house. I am grateful for the peace that I’m finding, and I’m glad that I’m finding it, at least for now, without having to separate myself from my husband. In spite of how [...]
Unwired.
My computer crashed this past weekend, and I’ve been debilitatingly unwired at a time when I could have used some cathartic writing. I’ve forgotten how to write in a notebook. It doesn’t feel real to me anymore.My husband had a tantrum on Easter Sunday. We were having a lovely morning, eating a breakfast together that [...]
When We Sleep.
Ahhh!I can’t stop being too attracted to my husband to be able to set boundaries right. He’s been being very sorry for being a jerk, and I’ve been too smitten with him to be able to talk about what happened between us this past weekend.I spoke with my Al-Anon sponsor about it and about boundaries [...]
Unglued.
My husband announced to me tonight that he’s not going to go back to anymore meetings.No explanation, really, other than that he thinks it’s not the right thing to do. He said he’s been ritualistically attending meetings and not believing in what he’s hearing there. I’m not sure what he means, and I’m not sure [...]
Second Road.
Hey folks!Don’t forget about The Second Road. You can see my posts over there here. (Source: Heroin Addiction Codependence)
What’s the F.ing Point Anyway?
“What’s the f.ing point, anyway?” shouted my husband. He was stomping around the kitchen, cursing and throwing dishes and shouting about our communication failure.He’d woken me up and asked me to edit an email he was composing to a perspective employer. It’s a job tattooing, and he’s excited and afraid of it. I am also [...]
PTSD and Me.
Ahhh, therapy.We met with our new marriage counselor today. Our previous one, who I’d come to trust and respect, had to go away on leave for a few months, and now we have a new one. It was interesting.I completely melted down in the session. I had no idea it was going to happen, but [...]
The Return.
I spent Saturday night out of town with a girlfriend, and I came back home yesterday. I was a little worried, and I prayed all the way home about my return. My husband and I have established a stupid pattern for when we reunite after I go out of town. We hate each other. We [...]