My Prayer.
Dear God,Please help me. I am hurting. Please take this hurt away from me, and use it as a portal to come closer to you.Please help me to see my marriage more clearly. Please help me to understand if there are more lessons for me to learn in this relationship, and give me the strength [...]
I Love…
My husband has been reading my blog and getting his feelings hurt again. He isn’t able to hear my love for him between all my fussing about what’s bad. I realized that I write here when things are bad, and I don’t record much of what’s good. I’m going to try to write down, every [...]
Insecure.
I am feeling real insecure in my marriage right now. My husband and I had a lovely day together yesterday, but there are a lot of things that aren’t right. I’m not right and he’s not right, and we aren’t able to communicate about it very well at all.I feel like my heart is going [...]
I Love…
I love it when my husband puts his arm around me while we sleep. (Source: Heroin Addiction Codependence)
Let’s Try.
My husband didn’t come home last night. He showed up this morning at 7 a.m. I get lost between when he is bamboozling me and when we are having communication problems and when I am paranoid and when he’s trying to hurt me on purpose and when I’m deliberately misunderstanding him because I like to [...]
Prayer.
Please, God, help me to let go of this situation with my husband. Please help me to remember that it is out of my control and no amount of crying, stalking, cajoling, or other manipulations will change his course of action. Help me to trust that he will change when he is ready to change.God, [...]
Rolling with the Roller Coaster.
I’m doing ok. It’s kind of a miracle.My husband spent the first night at home last night in about 10 days. Not because he wanted to or anything…it’s not like he likes me or whatever. He just felt really sick and didn’t have anywhere else to go.I am his safe haven. I wish he were [...]
Goodbye.
I think I’m retiring this identity now. It has served me well, but I want to tell other stories.If you have found this site and it has been helpful to you, I am happy. I am happy that my experiences with my husband’s addiction have been useful.And to anyone who might find it for the [...]
Who is this man, and what have you done with my husband?
This meeting-attending, honest man is making me kind of uncomfortable. I don’t know how to deal with him.I love him, and I’m afraid of him. What if he goes away? (Source: Heroin Addiction Codependence)
Hopeless.
My husband is struggling today, and he needs it to be my fault. He was telling me how he’s having a lot of using dreams, and that he’d been having cravings today that were hard to handle. I don’t have an answer for him, as I’m not an addict. I can’t be his sponsor, and [...]